Why talk to people and tell them things when they don’t even take your words as importance when you speak to them, then bug you when they want to know something out of curiosity and claim themselves as a rightful authority to know?
A friend listens to everything you have to say, regardless if it’s of utmost importance or pure crap. That is something I believe in 
I have reached another level of ignorance already. LOL Ignoring people as such.
KOREA <3
I can’t never get enough of it. Browsing through the album brings a flood of memories. 
Finally found some time to blog 
Updates of bits and pieces from here and there.
Birthday card all the way from Kangarooland from the best friend. Totally did not expect that at all.
Last trekking lesson. Funny how we ended up trekking back with umbrella in our hands because it began to pour LOL
Bought mom a delightful Mother’s Day dinner which she definitely deserves it
Found this scary looking fruit called Buah Salak when I went for grocery shopping a while back. Tasted weird at first but it was okay after that. x)
Thought that my phone needed a new shirt. Hence, Stitch! with glasses lol
Got a bike and rode pillion around UTM. It felt very good to feel the breeze and freedom after many hectic days. A good form of relaxation and destressing.
Preparation before PCP quiz. Went in there and put up my white flag. I SURRENDER T_T
Just came back from this term’s last Corporate Relations meeting. It was one of the best meetings that I have attended in a while.
It makes me realize how much AIESEC has taught me. AIESEC has taught me things that I did not expect to learn and pick up. The organization has definitely taught me to understand myself better.
3 more weeks till semester break.
2 more weeks till finals.
I don’t know when do I get a break from all this hecticness, especially when I have just signed myself up for another challenge which lasts till April next year.
It’s worth it though
It’s been a while since I last dropped some words here.
Brief updates just to let the world know that I am alive and still surviving the suffocation of hecticness. *breathes in
Will write more on this next time. That is a promise to myself, to my VP, and the organization. Call me stubborn but I will prove them wrong, wrong for not putting me in the place I want to be.
Mini me and the cousin.
Back to those days where all I worried is that who will be buying us Pop Pops and Pop Pops were the coolest thing ever. I remembered vividly how homey Ah Kong’s wooden house felt. How I wailed and cried when mom put me in my cousin’s house because I wanted to sleep with mom in Ah Kong’s house. I remember how lively and merry it was when all the Oois (mom’s side) gather at the first day of Chinese New Year, have an amazing feast before starting their gambling session which usually lasts for a few days. I remember vividly how I used to be afraid of lion dances and the fact that I could not pronounce lion dance in Hokkien properly and got whacked by my cousin badly from exasperation of teaching me repetitively. Those days where you stood by the door and strangers who come to Ah Kong’s house would give you ang paus without knowing who you are.
Brings back so much memories
I put in a lot of effort into running for the VP position but I have to admit, I did not give my best. When I look back, I could have done SO MUCH more and better. I did not realize how much I wanted it. I did not prepare much for the interview after passing the election and assessment, thinking I would do just fine in the interview with my well planned out initiatives in mind for the next term.
I was wrong, I disappointed many people. I disappointed the elect comm, I disappointed friends who had so much faith and belief in me. I disappointed myself.
Last night, I have a deep thought and did a reflection of all these that have happened within the past few weeks. I realized that the election committee made the right choice to fail me. In fact, I’m very glad that they did. They couldn’t get someone to hold the VP ER position now but they have created a much stronger candidate.
That one failure made me realize how badly I actually want this position. I found the reason why I couldn’t answer my VP ER’s question well, “Why do you want to run for ER?”. I finally understand why he said my answer wasn’t strong enough.
If I have the chance, I would thank the election committee sincerely for failing me.
I finally realize how badly I want to be the VP ER. My hand literally shivers at the thought of submitting my application and attending the director interview. This time around, I’ll be running for VP ER all over again despite it being a director application. I know how much it is going to hurt if I don’t get it and I am not letting that happen.
This time around, I won’t let the interview panel to have a single reason to fail me 
Here is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:
1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?”Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?
2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.
“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu
3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.
4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle
5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle
6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.
7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.
9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell
10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer
11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt
12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.
13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.
14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.
15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves. You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.
More often that, it’s those 15 things we always forget to practice and they’re the ones who bring misery to our lives. When that happens, we have no one to blame but ourselves.
This is one of the best articles that I’ve read in a while. Another alarm call. Another mental note to keep in mind. A highly crucial one in fact.
THREE hours to come out with these 4 vials.
Thursday AGAIN.
Not a day I look forward to anymore.
My morning starts off with this three hours of excruciating organic chemistry laboratory session. Lab sessions are supposed to be fun but not when your lecturer is menopausing and scolds at every minor matter that.
My happy lab partner who always apologize to me for the tiniest matter 
Whatever happens, there is one thing I know I can’t afford to do.
I can’t afford to disappoint the people who put trust and believe in me.
Thank you to those who never stopped believing in me when I have stopped believing in myself. 
It’s definitely going to be worth it (:
This post is not meant to offend anyone but just some thoughts to pen down.
Sometimes, I wonder if culture is that important?
Is it that important to distinguish and identify people according to their race?
To me, it’s not fair to call someone a shame just because she/he doesn’t know much of his/her culture and heritage.
So what? How is knowing more about the Chinese culture going to help me be a better person? Is eating with chopsticks and watching more lion dances help me prosperous in life later on?
To me, it is because of the typical human behaviour who tends to stereotype people who hikes up the racism issue.
It is our emphasis on our own uniqueness that creates a gap among the races. Then, we tend to blame it on another race, saying that they’re racist.
I don’t go for Chinese cultural programs because I have no interest in it. It is similar to how some people don’t enjoy shopping but I do.
I don’t usually eat Chinese food when I dine out because I like to have variety in food. I have been eating Chinese food for the past 20 years, even when I dine out with my family because mom only eats Chinese. It does not mean that I loathe Chinese food. Different people have different preference and taste.
I’m disappointed to see how people judge others based on such minor matter.
But it doesn’t mean that I’m not proud of my own race. It doesn’t mean that I’m ashamed to be a Chinese.
I just don’t understand why is it so important to be a TRUE Chinese who has to eat and LIKE Chinese food, who has to LIKE cultural performances and activities, who has to know everything about Chinese traditions.
And you can tell that I’m not your typical cina chao ah lian and I can tell you that is something I’m very proud of 
Again, I have no intention to offend anyone but it’s just a little thought of mine. Not that little but oh wells x)
